Sex is one of the most judged activities on the planet. Different cultures have different ways of expressing that judgement – and the result of judgement is never expansive. Judgement will always kill possibilities, and in this case, the possibilities are for communion and pleasure with our own body, and our partner’s body.
So, to fully answer the question why did I create this class, I need to go back in time. It’s only recently that I have realised this, it was so deeply buried in my psyche – when I was a child, I was highly aware of my body, and the pleasure it could give me. That was pretty much stamped out of me; it was made clear to me in different ways by my Mum and my Dad that that kind of enjoyment was not “suitable” and “appropriate” in our family.
As a teenager, and actually all through my adult life in different ways, I was confused about sex, and the sexual experiences me and my friends were having, or seemed to be having. We actually didn’t talk about the details a great deal. We were “nice” British “gals” or young ladies after all.
Are you feeling intense sometimes? And what do you do when you are?
I was away for five weeks in different places (Czech Republic, Brazil, Italy, South of UK and Romania) facilitating classes and being in classes, and had lots to say. When I got home, I had promised myself that I would carry on creating, keep up the momentum…………………….and actually I have been struggling with a lot of physical pain and emotional intensity.
Which I actually get is my body and being “realigning” to a new space of being, which maybe doesn’t have to entail pain, but in this case it did for me! And I get that it is very intense for many of us at the moment.
Are you being stupid with something in your life?
Well, my name is Fiona and I am stupid with money! LOL
This has been my judgement of me = and of course it was a total secret, not something I would shout out over Facebook, send to my mailing list or do a blog post about!!! LOL
And as I was judging me and worrying about it, and worrying what people would think about my stupidity, I get I was creating it - universe could just hear stupidity money, money stupidity, stupidity money, money stupidity .........
I have spent quite a bit of time over the last couple of weeks with my parents.
My Dad, who is now 88, has been looking after my Mum for the last few years, as she has been increasingly suffering from dementia. And now he realises that he can't cope, that he needs some help, that they actually need to leave the home they have been living in for nearly twenty years.
Beyond that, my Dad has the sense that he will die soon, that actually the life he is living, with so much pain and so many restrictions on his body, is not worth living.
It's now nearly exactly six years since I found out about Access Consciousness and attended my first Access Bars class. And six years later, here we are at the train station in Manchester Piccadilly running Bars on strangers!!!
I loved Bars from the very beginning - even before I received the Bars, I somehow knew there was something special about it, something that would totally change me and my life.
That's how it has been - over the last six years, everything in my life has changed, expanded, grown, and I get happier and happier and happier - and I see that with countless friends and people who come for sessions and classes!
For the last few days, I have been doing some Facebook live videos, and I have had a lot of engagement, comments and discussion around them, and people commenting that they can relate and gratitude that I am posting them.
So, I thought I would share them with you too.
These two links are for videos I created around shyness, and for me residual shyness in front of people you make greater than you. I realised that in the past, my "you are greater than me, so I have to be quiet, or I go blank" list was massive. Over the years, it has reduced - and now my demand of me is that nobody is on that list any more.
Have you ever surprised yourself by changing something you didn't even think you could change?????
This is what has occurred for me with the tools of Right Voice for You and my relationship with my Dad.
He was always really critical of me, as a child, a teenager and as I became a young woman. I was always fighting him, reacting to him. separating from him.
I am sitting and catching up on some emails and this newsletter after being at the amazing Symphony of Possibilities class in New Delhi, India.
This class was awesome - I feel so light, expansive, spacious, and I spent a lot of the class laughing. It really seems as though a lot of the things that used to be so powerful in stopping us from creating our own reality are no longer relevant - I find myself stopping me less and less.
And I would like to share something else I noticed - when i came to India three and a half years ago, I stayed in a dodgy hotel in a dodgy part of town, and didn't really enjoy it. At the time, I didn't think it was possible for me, or worth it for me, to stay in a better place.
One woman’s journey to heal what doctors told her was impossible.
For years, Fiona Cutts was controlled by her crippling fear of chronic fatigue.
“I used to be so shy that I could scarcely say my name in public”, Cutts says. “My fear of public speaking was so intense that people would often say to me, ‘How are you going to make this work in the corporate world?’ I did make it work, through a mixture of avoidance and sheer determination, but eventually, the effort caused me to develop chronic fatigue syndrome.”
Numerous studies show that getting stuck in negative emotional patterns – anger, loneliness, sadness, stress and anxiety – can have a huge impact on physical health.
Despite being told that she couldn’t heal herself, Fiona pressed on, making space for negative emotions to be processed (not suppressed), trusting her own body and empowering herself with tools and strategies that support her to be more positive.
I just realised something that really made me laugh!!!
A couple of weeks ago, I chose to put 2 online events out into the world - a week of energy pulls and an online event, called Beyond Definitions about some latest tools in Access Consciousness.
I chose both subjects because of the amount of change they have given me, particularly over the last few weeks, and I priced them so that people could just say YES with EASE!
Are you fed up with an “ordinary” life? Maybe you're stressed out, struggling with low mood, or physical illness? Maybe there's a particular area of your life you would like to change?