I always judged myself as shy, whilst hesitating to use that word about me. Why? Because I had so much judgement of it, and somehow thought by not talking about it, only mentioning it to the people closest to me who I could trust, somehow nobody else would know.
Of course everybody knew. That’s how secrets are. Everyone knows what we try to conceal about us.
And what was so awful that I wanted to hide it about me? Well, here is the dictionary definition, which still makes me feel a tiny bit “yuk.”
“The tendency to feel awkward, worried or tense during social encounters, especially with unfamiliar people.”
Mmmmmm - my whole life was dominated by the fear of meeting new people, the fear of appearing stupid, and if it came to speaking up in front of people, the whole thing escalated! I remember a time when I had to do some presentations for work: they were every six months, and I would spend two months worrying about them, and two months beating myself up for the failure I had been again! That didn’t leave much time for relaxing and enjoying my life!
Hello I’m Fiona and I’m magic!
Here’s the story of my remembering and acknowledging that I’m magic.
I’ve been in Mexico for the past few weeks as many of you know and now I’m in the United States. Before all this, I was thinking about where I’d like to spend the winter and for no apparent reason apart from the obvious - it’s sunny and yummy, it’s delicious and it’s beautiful - Mexico popped.
I managed to fly to Mexico literally two days before the UK shut down completely. Once I booked my flight to Mexico, I found out a really super, exciting thing. If I were in Mexico for two weeks, I’d be able to fly to the United States, to Houston, to do my favourite class in the entire Access Consciousness year, the Maestro class.
Hola from Mexico.
I am in Cancun now, which is a big city on the Caribbean coast.
It’s so funny. I’ve been in Mexico just a little bit more than two weeks and I’ve already moved around the country three or four times. Apart from my first stopover in Mexico City, which was fine, for some reason or another, the other places have not been fun even though I had spent hours and hours on the computer, determined to make my next destination even better! I was trying to force it and figure this out!
But figuring it out never works. Here’s the thing. Figuring it out comes from our sweet heads and yet, my body was letting me know otherwise. The last place I stayed was so intense and my body was contracting and reacting so much that I couldn’t work like I planned. I scarcely did anything!
One woman’s journey to heal what doctors told her was impossible.
For years, Fiona Cutts was controlled by her crippling fear of chronic fatigue.
“I used to be so shy that I could scarcely say my name in public”, Cutts says. “My fear of public speaking was so intense that people would often say to me, ‘How are you going to make this work in the corporate world?’ I did make it work, through a mixture of avoidance and sheer determination, but eventually, the effort caused me to develop chronic fatigue syndrome.”
Numerous studies show that getting stuck in negative emotional patterns – anger, loneliness, sadness, stress and anxiety – can have a huge impact on physical health.
Despite being told that she couldn’t heal herself, Fiona pressed on, making space for negative emotions to be processed (not suppressed), trusting her own body and empowering herself with tools and strategies that support her to be more positive.
I just realised something that really made me laugh!!!
A couple of weeks ago, I chose to put 2 online events out into the world - a week of energy pulls and an online event, called Beyond Definitions about some latest tools in Access Consciousness.
I chose both subjects because of the amount of change they have given me, particularly over the last few weeks, and I priced them so that people could just say YES with EASE!
If you’re a therapist or a coach, I have some good news for you!!!
Maybe, like me, you love what you're doing – and are looking for something that can enhance and complement that?
Or maybe you are a bit frustrated, and know that there must be something quicker, easier and faster?
For me, both of these were true when I first encountered the tools of Access Consciousness now four and a half years ago.
Access Consciousness has been a powerful tool on my own healing journey, one which allowed me to see for the very first time that I really could “have it all.”
My life is becoming unrecognisable. Actually, I am unrecognisable compared to who I was, and from that unrecognisable space, I am creating an unrecognisable life.
LOL. I hope that makes sense!
In the first couple of months of 2018, I am travelling to eight different countries (some of them twice!) to facilitate Access Consciousness and Right Voice for You classes and attend classes. All kinds of projects and initiatives are opening up – radio shows, talks, being published in an alternative magazines………………..in Norwegian, which I find particularly fun.
And my personal life is changing in a good way too!!!
Are you fed up with an “ordinary” life? Maybe you're stressed out, struggling with low mood, or physical illness? Maybe there's a particular area of your life you would like to change?